Learn how to Live

“It’s so curious: one can resist tears and ‘behave’ very well in the hardest hours of grief. But then someone makes you a friendly sign behind a window, or one notices that a flower that was in bud only yesterday has suddenly blossomed, or a letter slips from a drawer… and everything collapses. ”  Colette

For over a week,  I’ve had a hole in my heart that felt as though it would  swallow me whole.  I lost a very dear friend and mentor to cancer. Unfortunately, I’ve lost countless loved ones and once again, I find myself, between moments of deep sorrow, and the numbness that prevents the loss from feeling real.

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Thank you Steve Jobs

Sadly, today we say goodbye to an icon – Steve Jobs.  Whether you’re a Mac or PC person, it’s hard to argue what an amazing visionary Steve was. His passion was apparent in all he did and his charisma was a reflection of that.

As a tribute to him, I’m sharing this video of his commencement speech at Stanford. Please make the time to watch it; it’s a very worthy reminder of how to live your life fully. His words and views of death struck a chord with with me, as it has been the deaths of my loved ones that have had the greatest impact on how I choose to live.

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Death does not wait

Uncle Joe

“Have you ever lost someone you love and wanted one more conversation, one more chance to make up for the time when you thought they would be here forever? If so, then you know you can go your whole life collecting days, and none will outweigh the one you wish you had back.”
Mitch Albom, For One More Day

This is a continuation of the last post.

A week later, my son and I would be on a plane headed for Michigan. He was eleven months old and would soon be meeting my dad’s side of the family for the first time.

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Inspiration and Solace

Woodward Dream Cruise

Where do you find inspiration and solace? We all need an outlet. Something to get lost in. Something to rejoice with. Something to ease the pain. Whether it’s writing, music, restoring cars or a sport that provides physical release, we all need to find our “thing”.

Writing and music are some of mine.  At times I hear a certain song and it takes me back to very specific moments in my life. My Aunt Sarah always listened to music and through it, she gave me glimpses of her heart. I remember once in passing she said the song “In the Ghetto” by Elvis always made her cry because when I was born it reminded her of me. I was born on a cold winter day and my parents separated when I was six months old. I flash back to bits the lyrics –

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The Little Blue Box

Mom's HeartAs my half-marathon approaches I think of my Mom in Law  who was my inspiration for running. I wrote this while I was healing from her death.

The Little Blue Box

A Tiffany heart necklace sits regally inside the little blue box. My husband and I gave it to my mom-in-law (mom) for her 75th birthday. She was in remission from leukemia. That year I wanted to give her something out of the ordinary – she was a very out of the ordinary woman and I loved her dearly.  We searched and searched but nothing ever seemed quite right. We decided to stop by Tiffany’s on a whim and it was there that we finally found something that spoke to us – what a better gift than to give her our heart.

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